On this last day of May in 2021, I’m taking some time to reflect on what I’m choosing to have in my life and to honor the things that have come up for release this month. The months usually go by so quickly but for me, May lingered. And last week’s astrological insights were pretty intense. Super Full Moon. Eclipse. Mercury Retrograde. How did these energies show up for you? How is this time period supporting you in transformation?

For many of my clients, and for me in particular, one of the most significant things I’m revisiting is the notion of attachment. To things, to people, and to situations going a specific way.

Last week I decided to change my cellphone carrier after 19 years of having the same one. Before porting over my number I asked way too many questions and spent almost an hour on the phone with customer service trying to make sure nothing would go wrong, that I wouldn’t be left without a phone, and that all my T’s were crossed. So, of course, everything that could possibly go wrong did, and I was left without cell service for hours, I had to restore my phone to factory settings, and I lost all of my saved voicemails. Voicemails I’d kept from my grandmother, who passed in October. Birthday messages from loved ones. And special moments in time I’d saved for years. The messages that stung the most were from those who are no longer in my life for whatever reason. Reminders of a different time.

I went straight from disbelief to acceptance with barely any other emotions because I immediately recognized the irony of choosing to switch cell service after 19 years during Mercury Retrograde. My timing is almost laughable but I know in my heart it served a purpose. Clearing out energies that no longer serve me. When we call in transformation we have to be willing to relinquish the attachments that keep us tethered to stale energetic vibrations. It’s not for the faint of heart but it has to be done if you want to level up.

For one of my best friends, the past five days have been completely disorienting but also filled with the blessings riding on the coattails of that instability. Last Friday, her dog Mason “randomly” swallowed an entire marrow bone, something he hasn’t done in the seven years she’s had him. As a result she had to get her dog x-rayed to make sure the bone wasn’t causing any kind of intestinal obstruction. The x-ray (followed up with an ultrasound) revealed a huge mass on his spleen, huge, having nothing to do with the marrow bone. The mass needed to be removed immediately because it could have ruptured at any moment, causing internal bleeding and a dire situation. So Mason had surgery - is resting and healing and he’s doing great. And what seemed like the dumbest, pain in the booty ordeal, ended up potentially saving his life.

And the biggest takeaway I had this month was about my health and surrendering to being sick for the majority of the month. Contracting C*V!D was the most humbling experience I’ve had in years. It’s been a full month and I’m not 100% yet. Had you asked me in April I would have told you I’m the healthiest person I know. I don’t drink, I move my body regularly, I steer clear of toxins, and that I haven’t even had the flu in years. I have been more careful than many of my peers in Miami, yet not only did I get sick but it felt like having the worst flu and the worst hangover of my life, simultaneously.

C*V!D has been a huge lesson in attachment. In being attached to feeling a specific way and living my life in accordance with my will. Being sick has literally forced me to slow down, sleep enough, relish downtime, up my self-care, and be present and connected to my body. Being sick and living alone was not fun, at all, but it gave me perspective and gratitude for so many things I had been taking for granted (things I never even considered) - like bones that don’t ache (I’ve never experienced so much pain in my body before), having the energy to walk Palo, the ability to look at a computer screen without a splitting headache, my sense of taste and smell, and so much more.

It forced me to sit and be still. To feel difficult feelings that were buried under business. And to take a look at my closest friendships and the energetic exchanges with those closest to me and my business too. All good things but also none of it was comfortable.

Take some time today and contemplate this past month. What’s going on for you? Are you moving out of one phase of your life and into another? Were there big changes in your work environment? Do you have exes resurfacing? Are you having crazy tech issues? Or dramatic situations seemingly coming out of nowhere? What has this month brought you? What can you be grateful and present for and what can you release with gratitude? Is there a way you can honor the attachments that have come to pass? Can you pay homage to the relationships that have supported and nurtured you but are now ready for completion or transformation?

If we take the time to sit with what has transpired in our lives this past month, we can embrace transformation. Taking the time to close one chapter mindfully makes so much difference in how we show up for ourselves in the next phase of time. So this is a reminder to take time today to reflect, letting whatever needs to integrate do so while you’re resting tonight. And then you can wake up tomorrow, on the first day of June, ready to forge ahead with love, grace and surrendered flow.